happy thanksgiving.

i just wanted to stop by quick and say happy thanksgiving to you all.  you'll probably be happy to know that i'm still around to share these holiday times.  that's fine.  i just look at things in a whole different way.  but strangely enough i don't look at things with the finite outlook i could, or should, have.  i'm not doing anything that i wouldn't have done otherwise.  given the comfortableness of the event as a whole, one would be prudent to take a look at all of the feelings that are surrounding me. enveloping me.  making me whole in one thing.  i used to be like that.  but any more i just go with the flow.  i don't chart territory any more.  this is like seeing the aura from everything living.  

this thanksgiving will serve as a means by which i can have my last goodbyes.  they won't know it, and it'll be fun seeing them as they are.  the only problem i see happening is if someone were to email me with concerns, i'd have to remain anonymous, leQ, or quasar.  there's a funny story that goes along with how i picked out leQ.  i'll be able to say good bye without them knowing it because i want to remember them for what they are, not what they'll do when they discover something, and by not being forceful in nature, i can ride along whatever trails are being examined.  if i left them alone and let them make all the decisions, there's a sense of empowerment.  

by all accounts, i would be able to view humans in all their pleasure and self-sustaining attitudes.  i don't dare let them in on the secret.  i don't wanna go to mercy, and am not expecting to until next tuesday.  i see my doctor one more time.  he's not going to know the truth either, as much as i would like to discuss this in greater detail.  but they'll get all bent and broken about things and call the sherriff. i certainly can't let that happen now can i.  at least i'll be eating good.  yup, the holidays are upon us.  get your wallet out and start watching the money fly away.  this will be the most expensive christmas i have done in a long time.  i'd like to get my friend a new computer.  we'll have to leave the rest of the clues hidden.  

one more week.  i suppose i could make the most of it.  but what would i do having dozens of friends, i have dozens of friends, just not the kind you pinch at the next party.  since this is the week of thanksgiving, and most of my memorable moments have just by luck happened on thanksgiving.  but i gotta run now.  my ride is here.