a view from the top

i feel like i'm on top of the world, looking down at a planet so blue and rich with life. then i wake up. and that's when reality settles in for a long stay. spoze to be a cold winter this year. i've done my part, and bought some longjohns. hopefully the boots i bought back in 89 still fit. they did last year, and i only gained about 10 lbs since. it's amazing, i weigh in a healty 185 range, give or take a few ounces.

ya, i've gained some weight, and i really don't understand where it came from ... my diet isn't at all conducive to weight gain. although i do love my ice cream. but still, the amount of food i put away is nothing compared to what i would eat 5 years ago. i used to make meals with bread, butter, salad/soup, entree with potatoes and vegetables with my steak or hamburger(i'd make fries instead). but pittance of what i used to eat. i wish the doctors would have some answers for me, but they don't.

they can't explain my counts, they can't explain my weight gain, and they are noticeably silent when i ask them about that week i stayed in st. mary's up there the middle of april. i tell ya, to this day, i can't remembedr opne iota of my time in that hospital. nothing comes to mind when i see pictures of it in rochester mayo. i've quizzed my doctor about it, and he just mumlbes that everything went fine and i passed all my tests. yet they werew unable to give me a diagnosis. that's the one thing that bothers me about rochester. there are a couple of other things that i'm disturbed about with them.

but this isn't a post about mayo. if ity was i'd be pressed to mention things that would require too much thinking on my part. and right now my mind is on writing about something else.

i'm happy about my invites to be friends are getting returned and accepted. thanks guys. youi've kept me from slamming society as a whole. i hope you enjoy yourselves with my wit, provided i can type reasonably well. i welcome all comments,. have always, but nobody reads what i type. there's theresa collins that seems to treat me well. she makes me happy and again doesn't lend herselve to play a bad part of society. she's got that truth from the heart thing going on. others, like linda, cole, jenny, and even ty. ty even referred to me as step dad, which almost gave me a hardon. if you'd see him, you would react as i.

some twety minutes later...

i think i'll close this now. i've about all out of poop for tonite., but i should get back into the habit of keeping this up to date more often than i have been ... a poopy post a day keeps the doctors away, yay hay.

-leQ

i'm writing this without the title being laid. it'll allow me to give it a good name. titles are important. they signify in a subtle way of what to expect. sometimes they do, and sometimes they don't. giving a piece a title means you're trying to exuberate the environment with sounds that are pleasing and inviting.

giving, say, a song its title. Happy Birthday. not only is it repeated twice as much as everything else, it's changing its audence from lacluster to glitterish. and since people have memorized the tune already, it would hardly be any effort to get them to sing it again. they know the song, so they'll sing along. and we'd have a very happy people in the end.

i don't know if i'm going to put a title to this. i wouldn't know what sorta words could describe this rant. out of nothing, comes nothing.

but if i do put a title to this post, i would need to let people know, but ya know what? i could wait and see if they too will come and sing along. it'd be interesting to see who comes out to watch this lasko going on and on and on and on and ON. speaking 120wpm. about getting free money. really. if you've never seen him, he's a hoot. but back to the topic at hand.

topics. their roll in the conversation between two or more people and one. i'm often that one in public. but what to call this rant. this post. this ...? i've run out of words. i'm sure there are some of you who could fill in the blank. this paragraph, if you will, will only be a mere 5 sentences long. long sentences, but only 5. i have a knack for making long long sentences. because if they knew ahead of time what the questions would be, they'll be prepared for how many? see, i'm not very good in math. i wonder if i couldn't type things out using the rhythm of external sources. just tapping my fingers on a keyboaerd, and pounding them at times to make sure they stay put. like they're going anywhere right? well, anyway, back to title. giving me a title to work on for 15 minutes is very gracious of you, ma'am. but i will understand if you couldn't get even 10? they're saying that they'd need 15x the going rate. of 15 i took it. so 15x15 -= 225. and hour? or how exactly is that supposed to work? for 225, an hour, i could give them their money's worth. but like, i almost totally forgot what the hell i was talking about. rewind.

even reading the post again, without the keying of the words into the system. cut i can barely keep up once i get going. there's kinda of a rhythm to these words' slap-hit. this cursor is moin allll over the place. right now i8t's sitting at the end of the line. but i can still use the practice. and now, what do i do? i reaally have no people skills.l not one at all. other than the face that i'm probably the most respectful person you'll erver meet. i can be. or i can choose a way-off=pad solution... for a discounted rate of course.

chicago 2009 stargate convention

well, i'm well rested and back home after a weekend of frolic and fun. conventioneering is a science. you have to know how to barter and bargain. and i went with a really nice kid - too young for my taste,, but we got along and had fun together. got somewhat drunk on friday night, spending $150+ in the hotel bar. another 100 on dinner in the hotel. so saturday wasn't me in my fineness. but we did enjoy going to dinner at maggiano's, and then playing pool in a neighborhood gay bar. where we played pool, and drank beer/cherry coke (he was driving so no drinking for him). we got back to the hotel, and just chilled out. i did a pipe, and that had me sleeping within 10 minutes. then sunday was the day to check out, sober up, and finish the convention with a photo op with the star of stargate atlantis, joe flannigan. joe, you were the highlight of my time. thank you.

so all in all, i think we had a good time. it was jake's first time in a gay bar. it was my first time spending a 150 bux in one night. we got lost on the drive back. ended up in madison wisconsin, but it really wasn't much out of our way. in fact, it was almost as close as the regular drive on hwy. 20. we took 18 accross iowa, and half of wisconsin. we put on 811 miles. and about 2.5 tanks of gas. so i'm back home and now i gotta clean diva's litter box, but stargate is on now, so i'll wait until that's over.

there's really only two sides. the upside, and the downside. there are no even side, or parallel side, although, there are occasionnally times where there is a parallel side, but it'll only exist with another parallel side. and that brings into the picture a whole slew of new variables.

two sides. the plus side, and the minus side. the good side, and the bad side. flat. things are always flat. until you hit that bump. then all hell breaks loose and you're suddenly on a one-way ticket to nowhere, but fast.

two sides. the fast side, the slow side. even i like to be in the middle of this one, i'll take fast over slow in a heartbeat.

the upside and the downside. here is where it gets personal. we're just not all as hot as we once were. the good side, much much better than the bad side.

-quasar

i had a vision of 9/9/09. i hope it's nothing more than a flash card thing.

"it's a chore, having sex."

-quasar

facebook, what it is to me

i joined facebook a really long time ago - when they first was getting started. i joined, and immediately thought, this is a load of crap, it'll never succeed.. there was just too much overhead. so i left it alone for, oh i dunno, 3years has it ben? but now. now i'm just about as addicted as anyone. really. and there's not a whole lot i can do about it. even leaving the computer down - i invariably pull the lid up and bam, i wass sitting in the chair. going to facebook.

i dont think going outside, for a drive say, will work toward that end of the craving. if there were fences in between us, you bet i would find a way to tear down those fences. or anything that got in the way of me and my facebbook. it's addictive, and they know it. they offer these games like mafia wars. does ANYbody really know what the point is? other than being the last one to be standing. no, mafia wars just will not explain herself to me. everytime i try to understand the jest of the game, up bounces something asking for money. it's at that point i stop and quit. so i'm wondering, if i were to give up some money, and own something that cost me SOMEthing (emphasis added)l, will mafia wars then show me why i needed to do that?

but i think i'm going out for a drive. i got this rental, and it's a near car. got sirius radio. rad as hell. it's kinda cloudy out. but i'll manage. maybe i'll go see who's in the park now. i might go by linda's and see if she's around.

it's been a while, since i posted to fields

and frankly i don't know what i'm gonna post about. i'll tell ya what, i'll do a bowl, and then we'll see if there's any creativity hidden under my shirt. or below my belt. so i'll be back in a few.

59%

well, it's almost 1am. and i jus did a half a bowl. finished up what i started earlier tonite. i could only take about 5 tokes, and then i was ready to put the shit down. it's that 80/8th shit. sorta like the bud i was getting when i was in san francisco. just not $80/eighth. anyway, i'm tryinjg to work my schedule down so when linda comes back i'll know what will be going on through the week. she's going back up to mpls on friday, only to return on saturday for some bridal shower. anyway, i dont quite know what will happen this week. i can only hope that diva's not needing the vet for that scrape she got into yesterday with the neighborhood bully cat. that black and while one. i've had to chase it out of the porch for being too aggressive. even to buster. buster will hold his own tho. so im not all that worried about him. it's getting close to my bed time. so i'll sign off for the nite.

Blogger vs Facebook vs Twitter

i wonder what the stats are on these services.  i'll bet blogger's second to facebook.  and twitter is a close 3rd.  i'll have to research this out and see how my answers fare.  the thing i don't like about facebook is that i cant get the hanf of these food fights, and that mafia game. what the hell is up with that. ?  anyway, i'm gonna hit the sack early tonite - before 1am.

fast, faster, and fastest

which are you? me? i'm the latter.

and likin it.

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happy fourth of july everyone

happy fourth of july you all. if you celebrate it as a holiday of history, the declaration of independence would be hung up somewhere. if you celebrate it with decor and dance, song and bling. one doesn't have to know much to enjoy the holiday of today. gaining independence is cause for celeb any time. any where. for any reason.

i thought that i could move over to facebook/twitter, and be done with the blog. but there's things about this blog that i can't capture in the blog, something that is intangible. it's more of an attitude than having anything 'inheritance. twitter has so much attitude, i'm almost afriad to post there sometimes. i spoze this blog has attitude, right?

i wish i could read this text. my eyes are blurry from the smoke. i've tried wetting down my mouth and throat, but to no success. i just have to keep the water around 24/7. i could put new lenses in, but then they'll jus get blurry like these. i would have to stop smoking to make the lenses last longer. i'm just glad there's that little bump on the f and j keys. ity's interesting to undersstand how the method of typing makes one prepare for life in much of the same. these are the right places for my fingers. i can feel it as i type. i don't need to read it. i just would like to read it. make sure that what i'm tyuping is what i'm saying. i could tryu dictation. but that means having a quiet ambience. i'm not ready for that yet.

the streets of san francisco was one, still is one, of my all time faves

RIP karl malden.

my thoughts on facebook

well, i've had a week's worth of facebook already. and i gotta tell ya, it was like i was on a trampolene. really. there were rushes, and then there was nothing. saturday night was a rush. sunday, thank god, was a nothing. some of us can't do them all nighters like we used to.

aint that right linda. and taffy.

because we're old enough to know better, regardless of whether we act better or not isn't the issue... but it's the fact that we should know better than to do some of the kind of crazy stuff ty has been into lately. and i'm only saying his name because he needs to know that there are consequences to his actions. he got really lucky lately. someone's watching over him, that's for sure.

and i'm sure it's not all one sided either. from what i hear, machaela will milk the thing if given the opportunity. and if it's in her best interest. but i'm glad he's going up to the cities. hopefully it'll jus be where he works a week under mark, and tunes everything else out, i think he can come back a more full person. if he can work for that grand, then more power to him. and i'm sure mark will keep an eye out for him too. so he's not doing what i did, and what many other kids do. thank god. but he's got a guardian angel around. i think his karma wheel is pertiner balanced by now.

but i'm still trying to get facebook's gui down. there's still a lot about facebook that i dont know, or haven't used yet. like that mafia thing. what the fuck is that all about? and

the list of voxxers - updated 6/30/09

Colin Maroney shaggy

Kelly Lincoln

David Schmidt quasar, leQ

Michelle R. riot

Stuart Klingman siva

Jessica Geslien jessii

Christopher Wisnoski skiman

Mishima Ten mish

Cathy White barton

Ed Tsigal entombed

Reuven Bell apollyon

Charles Platt felcher

Shannon Lucas

Matthew Simon Cavalletto simonm

Brady Hiscox frontline

Bader Al-Fraih xbs

Joe Gioia jag101a

Cairistiona Chow

Joe Cook ankh

Anne Toal bwp, 3jane

Melzie Colton

True Bix baby-x

Jeremy Ziemniak

Chuck Lin

Elizabeth McKay kurvybear, kbear

Paul Pimsler teepee

Gideon Lenkey

Jake 'Tea-drinking' Lister lister

Mindy Voxworth

Timothy S. Griffin cretin

Ryan Scuttle scuttle

Raul Rodriguez raul

Andrew Mihok andy159

John Whall

Mark Thomas sorabji

Jake Franklin jake

Thomas Crimi

Roxanne Xiaomu Feldman

Alejandro Ortega Gavilan

Priscilla Chang presley

Donna Loria prizm

Allen Louie alster, aoster, aosty

Net Runnr netrunnr

Colette McFadden sheimp

Jon Lebkowsky jonl

Isaac Rozenfeld amorphiz

Adam Prato sirsyko

Dana Bettinger newtt

Rose Fox

Meagan Franklin meg

Chris White slapshot

Dave Hunter

Sorel Husbands Denholtz sorel

David Parmet burma

Joe Loong joelogon

Alissa Bader molbloo

Peter Freeman

Catherine Skidmore eponine

Gita Enders genders

Zach Julian

Samantha Langton swale, mallet

Bruce G. Stewart bstewart

Seraphina Tisch

Diana Tenery-Ascher cassandra, cass

Kevin Ellis

John D'Emic cable

Michael Bayer classic

Diana Colbert spirit

Daniel Paikov ravy

Greg Vassie mutant

Carlton Brown galt

David Goldstein

Racheline Maltese reive

John-Paul Pagano

Mathew Murphy meta

Leah Campbell leah

Sara Hauschildt rothko

Matt Cable wozzeck

Sharon Greenfield pdxkona

Patrick DiJusto justpat

Dennis Wilen voidmstr

Tom Higgins tomwhore

Michael Bourke artless

Nate S nate

Gisela McKay gigi

shannon lucas = zhezhe

rose platt = bluemoon

adam knave - burble

adam trese = atfilm

robert franklin = rob, w0b

gideon lenkey = st_digital

peter freeman = e-glide

michelle reagin = riot, riotgrrl

mishima ten = bruja, mishima ten

thanks to void for the facebook source.

win7

i jus bought win7pro for $84+change. i had a $20 reward zone certificate that was going to expire so i had to spend it on something. might as well prepay win7, this way i'll have only to wait for it in the mail. hopefully they're mailing it to me,k i would have to have to be required to make a trip out there for it. what i would hope is that they let me download it. why not? i downloaded the rc. and it should be allowing us to upgrade, not do a fresh install. things get messy when i try a fresh install over an existing windows structure. bill you would save us a lot of headache if you just let us upgrade.

but i don't think he's listening.

end the sufferage, show your support

http://www.facebook.com/ext/share.php?sid=97375581649&h=vf1K3&u=jXOsg&ref=nf

happy gay day to you all

it was on the 27th of june, 1969, when the riots happened at a bar in new york city called the stonewall. evidently the queens just got sick and tired of the cops busting in all the time arresting people for nothing more than being queer. i had just turned 13. (get a load of those numbers will ya) so now every year the last sunday in june is commemorated for the 1969 riots. they usually make it a week long event, culminating with a giant parade down 5th avenue from central park to christopher street.

i just like celebrating my birthday with a parade.

well, there wasn't a parade in mason city, but there's one going on right now in minneapolis, and in cities across this big country of ours. but i did celebrate last nite with a kegger at my friend, david nunoz's house, and there was lots of people there wishing me and my other friend who just so happens to celebrate his birthday on the 27th too. so it was a good time had by all. i'm jus glad nobody got arrested for OWI last nite. seems everybody made it home and into bed.

i guess i use it as an excuse for my gayness - because i was born on gay day, er rather gay day happens to fall on my birthday. either way, i get a parade every year.

on the passing of michael jackson

searched in google brought this up:

Results 1 - 10 of about 65,900,000 English pages for michael jackson. (0.30 seconds)

that's gotta be a record for one individual. no?

those verify things at the bottom of some forms

i wish i knew what they were called, but you know those things that ensure the person filling out the form is real and not a bot? those things that look like text had been mixed in a blender, and you're supposed to enter the letters to prove you're alive. well, whatever they're called.....

I HATE 'EM.

i can never produce the right answer, even when the text is very defined. although those are few and far between. usually you get a swirled text and you're supposed to know and read what it says.

well, good luck on that. seriously, i can understand your need to have real humans filling out your forms, but really, there's gotta be a better way than to swirl some text and expect us to decrypt the thing for you. it wouldn't be so bad if the letters SPELLED SOMETHING IN THE ENGLISH LANGUAGE.

the next time i come across such a thing, i'm going to email the webmaster a real flame. and i'll be civil about it.

AZZ Cardfile, can't live without it

i use this fantastic little database keeper called AZZ cardfile.  after trying a number of shareware apps out there that can keep all of my data (personal, business, recreational) in one place.  not only that, but it's fast as hell.  just type a few letters and every card that matches it, gets pulled up.  and it sure saves me time from hunting down serial numbers and the like.  AZZcardfile is free to try, and only $30 to register.  if money is tight (and when isn't it), you can get the previous version for only $20.  here's wher you can get it.

as i twitted

(and i wish it could have been ringside), i'm watching the cotto/clottey fight at the garden (that's madison square garden to the uninitiated). go cotto!

note to self

shit i forgot what i was going to type down so that i would remember what 'it' was. and now i've forgotten what i was going to say. see? in a second, less than a second, i can lose all train of thought, or jump on something else and ride for a while. it's kinda fun to jump on people's trips. they all love to talk about themselves. people i find, are a generally pompous bunch.

but ya, i forgot allll about what i was going to remind myself with. it duznt happen often, thank god. but it does happen. and to which degree is how i judge my reality. only things that can excite multiple senses at a time are in rare order around here. so to fill that missing pocket of data, people often tend to talk about personal experiences. they'll generally reflect upon themselves in ways that would send psychiatrists across the globe running for their sheepskins, which are flying high in the air. but given the opportunity, people will generally talk about themselves. 90% of the time.

me? i tend to talk about them. mostly because my experiences would pale theirs. and that's being a pompous bitch. guilty, and i could care less. but really. but i speak the truth. i'm one of a kind. i like being that way. so many of the stars are also, self-absorbed. that's what makes one a diva. the fairer the light, the wealthier the game. and it's a game with them in the drivers seat most of the time (or so they tend to think they are pawns). i can see where chess would come in handy right about n0w.

so i leave with this in hand. the knowledge that i passed along a Qness secret. the realization that you are who you say you are. that's all. i'm feeling pretty good right about now. the right balance of booze and pot. it's a nice laid back feeling. not one to want permanently tho. and not doing something says just as much as doing something. it all depends on how one feels at the time and in the execution of a story line. something that says pretty much 80% of the truth.

i am about there with the ending now. one more paragraph.

finally, and i mean this truthfully, there's only one person you gotta please, and that's yourself. once you got that under control, it's time to reach out and take another story line and work at it. i can't say i'm at what stage of this cavalcade of a game i'm at. i'm not even sure of what game i'm in at this point in time. but how can anybody know what game they're going to be in. and that's a rhetorical question. planning is something i would pay someone to do. i thought linda wo9uld be good, and i think she is, jus not in my column. my relationship with this girl is one of a kind. but that's another story. one that maybe told (depending on several factors) yet tonite.

encounter@farpoint (.org) is on wiki

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Encounter_at_Farpoint shows where my email addy (encounter@farpoint.org) came from. they say, that's how you know you've arrived on the world stage is when wiki has a page on you. in this case, it's not me so much as my names' sake.

*wew* that was it

i had something enabled, a transliteration tool (i wonder why the only languages offered are southeast asia languages). thanks to ron in the blogger help group for pointing out where this switch is made. so a big public thanks to ron.

ட்பாபிது d

this is going to sound weird, but it's the god's honest ruth. when i
type a new post, it wants to translate my words into something hindu/
sanskrit. and now i can't post, unless i cut & paste from notepad.

திஸ் இஸ் கோயன் டு ற்றன்ச்லடே இந்தோ சன்ச்க்ரிட் ஜ என்சௌண்டேர்@பார்போஇன்ட்.org">@பார்போஇன்ட்.ஒர்

i can type in html mode, when i go into compose mode, bam, it starts translating. if anybody can give me a solution to this, i'd sure appreciate it.

அம இ ஸ்டில் போஸ்டிங், ளைப்.

something's in blogger's settings. i cant find anything at all related to language or keyboard. it's more alocal windows thing isnt it? this is typing in html mode. i'll switch over to compose mode below.

நொவ் இ'ம ட்ய்பிங் இன் இங்கிலீஷ், பட் இட்'ச ஸ்டில் கெட்டிங் ற்றன்ச்லடேது. ஸொமெஹொவ் சொமேவே, இட்'ச பெஇங் ற்றன்ச்ப்லடேது.


do i type in english, yes, in edit html mode. when i switch over to compose mode, i get the above typed out. i think it' a translation, not transliteration. nor is it just typing with a different font. it's a language issue. it's translating. and i cant for the life of me find out where that is set if indeed it's set at all.

someone in blogger should be looking into this.

எவேர்ய்திங் இஸ் கிங் உப இன் sanscrit

ஓர் வ்தடேவேர் தட் லங்குஅகே இஸ்.

இ போர் தி லைப் ஒப் மீ பகன் நாட் உண்டேர்ஷ்டந்து ஹொவ் இ'ம ட்ய்பிங் இன் சன்ச்க்ரிட், ஓர் ஹோவேவேர் இட்'ச ச்பெல்லேது. திஸ் இஸ் சோ வேஇர்து. பெஒப்லே வில் வான்ட் டு கோப்பி அண்ட் பேஸ்ட் திஸ் இந்தோ சொமே எடிட்டர்.


how in the hell did it keep to that script in notepad??? i'm really confused now.

and now i have to type it in notepad to get a western typeface. but this is not transliteration, it's translation

i can type right now.

farpoint fun fact

typical windows 7 installation is where 64,272 files in 13,175 folders hold fort in 11.9GB of drive space.

typical windows vista installation is 92,179 files in 19,569 folders, occupying 21.5GB of drive space.

the post before this one was pre-dated

and completed tonite. only the title stayed the same. there wasn't any text in the box. but i did fill it up some. anyway, i'm going to lay down on the coucfh,l and if i fall asleep i'll at least hear the phone ring. plus it'll wake up the mac and it will announce the number as if it was a dollar amount. in stead of 333 point 3, he would say 3 thousand,,. 3 hundred, thirty three. see the difference. anyway, between the both of them rining i shoiuld wake up without much a fuss.

say good nite gracie.

ok, um, it's getting late.

there. - i'm gonna type in this space. it's dated something else, but that's alright. I LOST \\PENIS. SHE JUST UP AND DIED ON ME, WOULDN'T MOVE BEYOND THE SPLASH FOR DOS. EVEN WITH THE ALTERNATE OS. EXPRESS GATE. THAT WOULDN'[T BOOT EITHER. I'D GET THE ASUS SPLASH, BUT NOTHING BEYOND THAT. NO CD BOOTING. NOT EVEN TRYING. I'VE DEFAULTED ON THE BIOS AND IT DIDNT MATTER. ITS AS IF I LOST THE HARD DRIVE. GOD HELP ME. ok, enough with the caps. i'm gonna jus stay up until 9 and i'll call her around that tyime. time. she's gona be a bitch if i wake her up early. god tv at this time of day sucks., 24 hour news, or game show on nbc. oh this isn't my diary. it's the blog darlin.

ok, i'll let this one go and get hung. i'm curious as to what the time and date would be on this post.

musings, raptures, and other unholy confirmations

i wish icould remember the hot idea i jus had. gosh darn it. in trying to be pepetualy funny, in a charming sort of way. it would take a lot of man guts to ride along side of some of those men who have put country above self. i get the chills just thinking about it.

the barracks, and the chow line, and eat with. it's all status. you earn status. sometimes a lot of litle things will get you a lot of lttle votes.

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it's past my bedtime. by 2 minutes. :) i tell ya, the last few months have been staying up late, and sleeping between 5am and 10am. i can handle two shows a week. shit ya. i'll tey and ge as musical keys are well planned out. i know how to teach it, but i couldn't do even my stuff.

ok, um, i'm flying blind here. i dont know what's up or what's down. i've got a good perspective on whatever it is, looking out over some grass, and then get on some rock walls and work out some solution. how funny it is that no sooner tdhan 5 months, and gemera;lly speaking, i'm on a 7 world front, between here and there. i've got houses of shit i get 0aied fo9rl

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well, it's time i hit the sak. diva's hopefully in the bedroom allready, i should just get all the food ontineures

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well, i'm ready for bed. 'nite all.

but not bad enough to kiill for it tho. and whether or ut i wek

happy birthday tetris

you were the only game for me for years. when they all laughed, i jus kept on tetting. yes, virginia there's a wolf in those there waoods. i'm watching wwc something, wrestling at its finest. anyway, i'm wondering where diva is. she's usually up around this time, but i dont see her anywhere. this wrestling is fake fake fake, but they're not bad actors i guess.

i realy dont know what to write here any more. alll the poopy -ness has fallen by the way side. it seems that i'm all dried up, literally. illiterately, i spoze i'm a washed up ol' fart. ya, that's me alright. and i'm damn proud of it. living this long, doing what i did, is no wonder i'm in the euphoria when i talk about history. i usually remember where i was by the song that was playing (in the clubs). like when giorgio came out with from here to eternity, i was in los angeles, and san francisco. i jus remember driving taxi durnig that time for this company out in the suburbs. something city. to the west of los angeles, and short of the beach some mile and a half. culver city. ya, i had to go out there and get my cab. i would make decent money, but it would jus disappear by my reluctance to save. save for a rainy day that never happened. i'd be rich as rich gets.

that's abuot it. i'm gonna head to bed here shortly. nobody's up on#mindvox.

new search engine

http://www.discoverbing.com/behindbing/videos.aspx

and it's owned by microsoft.

and it is fast baby. almost faster than google.

just wanted to share something with y'all. this is during peak hours (7-9pm CDT)

testing 1,2,3

i'm only testing a paste of a link
http://www.speedtest.net/result/488895552.png

there once was a time when...

things rolled along so smoothly, without the jitters of life.

ya, those times were a fun era. one filled with so much, that it would be impossible to remeber it all. i've tried to do my best to translate whatever i have written down. like i've written several times already, i have about 25 diaryie and phone logs, and irc logs, oh the irc logs. they can tell you a story all by themselves. but ya, i was keeping good books when iwas good and high. there's about 50% of it not on paper. so it's going to take a powerful memory to divulge those secretes. and another pipe,. ya, what found tonite is really pretty decent. thanks franke. oh and jake for ivin me a ride home. *tip*

so i'm having to stay up until 9 to take this computer back. it's the G50Vt, and a pretty drecent machine onece ya get used to it. it takes a bit of gettin used to. the numeric key pad has the "." above the 7 key. real awkward to hit. that's a point taken. next up is the microsophine. seems i cant take it off. what i say is getting transmistted into the output, which of course is hooked to my 30w system. with mixer of course. how else would i be able to have tv, dvr, xbox, and wired into the lan, which has 2 laptops, and one mac quad. all in a room about 10 square feet, x 10 feet. the width is only like 6.5/7. maybe 8

oh, and i got my virginity taken away this morning by posting a video to youtube. i'd be real interested in your thoughts on it. it's just my girl linda.

vista sp2 is now available

SP2 (five language standalone), x86 (32-bit)

SP2 (five language standalone), x64 (64-bit)

SP2 (five language standalone), ISO format (32-bit, 64-bit, IA64)

i just can NOT get this blu-ray disc to work

and i keep running into obstacles such as this:

CyberLink PowerDVD is not able to play the protected content on your
digital output device. Switch to an analog output (VGA, D-Sub) and then
try again. (Error Code = 0110)

Run the BD Advisor tool for more information.

well, that jus plain sucks ya hear that cyberlink? i've tried every player on the planet, and only powerDVD, which actually came with the drive originally, (i bought the drive off of amazon, and didn't see his disclaimer of not having any software with it). so i'm stuck with a BD player, 2 BD movies, and a screaming laptop w/32" monitor, and i can't watch any movies.

i'll letcha know when, and if, i resolve this issue. but right now, i'm gonna fire up a pipe. and relax for a moment.

an email i just got

in my yahoo box:

Hello,

Thank you for writing to Yahoo! Messenger.

I'm sorry you're still experiencing this webcam error, but I want toassure you that we are still doing everything we can to resolve thisissue as quickly as possible. Although we can not offer you an estimateas to when this problem will be fixed, please be assured that we areaware that the problem exists and our engineers are furtherinvestigating the issue. Unfortunately, we cannot offer any furtherinformation regarding this issue.

We appreciate your time taken in writing Yahoo! Messenger. As always,your satisfaction is our goal.

Thank you again for contacting Yahoo! Messenger.

Regards,
Maxp
Yahoo! Customer Care

to think yahoo's stumped on this one (the video image is flipped, and (i guess) there's only 2 panels, not 3 (there's no option to flip). i don't know if this is a 32-64bit problem, or whether it's a win7/winxp problem. they seem to be taking the reins on this tho. that's good. i hope they can nail this bugger down.

i forgot all about this blog

http://poopy.spaces.live.com/default.aspx

one minute in the life of the Q

[20:19] today?
[20:20] no, when face2face
[20:20] oh yeh
[20:20] so far so good
[20:21] oh. you havent done f2f yet??
[20:21] all phone
[20:21] ok, dont hold yer breath
[20:21] keep looking round
[20:21] yes
[20:21] yes
[20:21] all yer eggs in one basket
[20:21] egss, one basket, etc
[20:21] heh
[20:21] heh
[20:22] it's interesting, in both hebrew and espanol slang for 'balls' is 'eggs'


that's on #mindvox, a channel on irc. if ya go to efnet.org, you can hook up on the original irc.

windows 7 anecdotes, observations, and general comment

i'm hoping for some comment action on this one.

is anybody running windows 7? if so, please email me. it not, is there a reason you won't take advantage of microsoft's benevolence and grab the .iso (32bit or 64bit), along with a key?

i'm going to update this page as time goes on. trying to keep it all together. rather than spreading it out over several pages. i like searching one document rather than a million.

one of the first things that i wanna point out is that i have trouble with my mouse. the cursor (therefore the focus) moves all over the screen sometimes. so when i'm typing, the cursor could all of a suddent be typing in a line 5 lines behind you. you not only have to stop what you're doing and look all over for this bar/cursor/arrow thing and put it back at the end of the text i was typing. i can't recreate the situation, it just happens whenever it feels like it. there is no pattern to her behavior. but she's going to get whacked one upside it's button, and hopefully it'll calm down and stay put where it's supposed to be. now watch, i'm making an issue of something that isn't happening right now. i'm surprised i got this much typed without the mouse going back a few lines. it'll generally stay - whoops, there it went. it landed down on the tray on an open application icon. i didn't get a peek at what that software app is doing, like i normally (there it went again, i just replaced the cursor) do.

i thought it was the mouse, but she looks healthy. got a coupla new batteries in her. so i'm assuming it's a software issue. hence i'm looking at the properties of the mouse. i can't give up the move of focus attribute. otherwise known as the xmouse property. it even brings the window to the top when hovered over a second or 2. i wonder if that's configurable in the registry. anybody know?

but back to the reason i'm posting this, and consequently, updates as necessary, is one that i'm hoping other people have about windows 7. there's a already a few forums open to address this need, so i figure post there, then post here. a one line comment will definitely work in your favor.

windows 7 by and large, is a wonderful, exciting new windows. it's not vista. i've been able to run 99% of the apps i use (organizer 2.1 is my diary). i've grown away from microsoft office and turned to open office. i mean, c'mon, it's a freebie that can't be matched. if you have to work on cost/benefit ratios, then you'll appreciate open office's ability to not only handle it's own data. but read/write msoffice data with nary a miss. yes, windows 7 is the OS vista SHOULD have been. i paid for vista. and i'll definitely pay for win7. and that's about as good a comment as i got about it.

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sitting in my doctor's office

waiting for Dr. Johnson to get done with another patient. i'm not supposed to be on this computer, i'll bet, but shit, he's a half hour behind schedule, so if i'm going to wait, i might as well post. can't do twitter because i get one of these pages:

Trinity Health policy restricts access to this requested web site due to conflicts with our mission and values. Access restrictions are also implemented to web sites that have no business value or contain harmful information to the ongoing operations of Trinity Health services. Access to inappropriate sites are logged and monitored. Excessive attempts to access these sites will trigger follow up investigations leading to possible discipline up to termination.If you reached this page by accident follow up action is highly unlikely. If you believe this page is blocked inappropriately, please provide the Resolution Center with the following information:
Requested Webpage: http://www.twitter.com/ SmartFilter Category(s): custompermit_Humanresources;Blogs/Wiki;Social NetworkingWorkstation Address: 10.31.22.199

haha, i'm surprised they let in my blogs. oh well. i think i hear him coming.

this is really starting to piss me the fuck off

i'm trying to get the 32-bit version of win7 downloaded, and this is what i keep bumpin up against:

The webpage athttp://wb.dlservice.microsoft.com/dl/download/release/windows7/4/0/c/40c1e714-7910-4b38-9b5e-67fa522e6a44/7100.0.090421-1700_x86fre_client_en-us_retail_ultimate-grc1culfrer_en_dvd.iso?lcid=1033&RURL=https://www.microsoft.com/betaexperience/productkeys/win7-rc-32/enus/ might be temporarily down or it may have moved permanently to a new web address.

http://wb.dlservice.microsoft.com/dl/download/release/windows7/4/0/c/40c1e714-7910-4b38-9b5e-67fa522e6a44/7100.0.090421-1700_x86fre_client_en-us_retail_ultimate-grc1culfrer_en_dvd.iso?lcid=1033&RURL=https://www.microsoft.com/betaexperience/productkeys/win7-rc-32/enus/

SHAME SHAME SHAME on you microsoft. for making us jump through hoops to give you feedback on your product. shame on you bill.

guess what i got trying to download win7?

The webpage athttp://wb.dlservice.microsoft.com/dl/download/release/windows7/4/0/c/40c1e714-7910-4b38-9b5e-67fa522e6a44/7100.0.090421-1700_x86fre_client_en-us_retail_ultimate-grc1culfrer_en_dvd.iso?lcid=1033&RURL=https://www.microsoft.com/betaexperience/productkeys/win7-rc-32/enus/ might be temporarily down or it may have moved permanently to a new web address.

i need the 32-bit version, and it's painful to get right now.  basturds.

I WAHNT ONE!!

would you believe i used to have a dog that said those very words? and did so on command and intelligently? trust me, i aint seen another dog, same breed (pit-bull) regardless, that could boast with those credentials.

anyway, came upon a dream rig system:

My RIG:

Intel Core 2 Duo E6850 @ 3.6GHz 450X8 1.28v
Thermalright Ultima 90i + Arctic MX-2 + Glacialtech 89CFM
Abit IP35-E BIOS 12 FinalTranscend 2GB DDR2 @ 900MHz 4-4-4-15 2T 2.1v
EVGA 8800GT 512MB GDDR3 @ 725/1830/2030 MHz
Seagate 7200.11 ST3500320AS 500GB 32MB Cache SATAII
L.G. GSA H55N 20x DVD ReWriter
Sony CRX320EE Combo Drive
Cooler Master Xtreme 600W SMPS

http://forums.techarena.in/site-forums-feedback/1036856.htm

windows 7 and the expiration date of march 1, 2010

i can't say i agree with microsoft on their pledge to start shutting down systems that have RC on them, every two hours. and that we would need to rebuild our OS AND reinstall everything on it during the two weeks prior to cancellation of our builds.

in their own words:

IMPORTANT: The RC will expire on June 1, 2010. Starting on March 1, 2010, your PC will begin shutting down every two hours. Windows will notify you two weeks before the bi-hourly shutdowns start. To avoid interruption, you'll need to rebuild your test machine using a valid version of Windows before the software expires. You'll need to rebuild your test PC to replace the OS and reinstall all your programs and data.

http://www.microsoft.com/windows/windows-7/installation-instructions.aspx

that is just plain wrong of them to do this. we have given M$ a year of our uncanny ability to run beta software and make it work. we've given M$ an earful of logical advice, and some not-so-logical wisdom, on the perks of windows 7 (yes mariah, there are idiosyncracies in windows, even 7. and we've put up with them without nary a bitch (that wasn't made in stride at least). and what does microsoft do to reward our loyalty? not a penny off on their brand spanking new operating system. this is so wrong i don't know where to begin.

but suffice it to say, i'm leading the pack to get microsoft to reconsider their policy towards their most loyal followers. a 50% off retail price would fit the bill.

so how about it bill? think ya can say thanks with a 50% discount? AND we want to be able to plug the numbers in and we won't have to reinstall anything. c'mon bill, will ya do it?

if you're in agreement with me, email me with your take on it,

dinner was a blast, sitting across from the man of your dreams

it took all i could muster to keep my eyes peeled to something that was credible. iow, not on him. only the small glances fleetingly gazing upon this rich mexican soul. it was incredible. and i enjoyed every second of it. to the point of making him a little bit crazy. hehe

it went off like a charm. linda was the perfect host. and she had this idea that i was going to ass grab my way through the evening. and when that didn't happen, well, things just got sweeter. so i'm home now and he's with mackaylah. or however you spell it. i have nothing against, nor for, mackaylah. or however you spell it. i wish i knew that way i could keep from making you all crazy with me. i need to take off this suit i wore tonite. was a max in looks tonite baybe.

so until i wake up from this happy dream, bon voyage.

going out to dinner with a Qutie-pie.

and his mother. thought i'd throw that in right away lest you get the wrong idea. don't get me wrong. this kid is hotter than anything hollywood has to offer right now. but i'm excited enough to get all dressed up and lookin like i live in the high rent area. even doddled a bit of calvin klein, a christmas present from said mom.

i wonder what the topic of conversation will be at dinner. i'll have to think of things to say. it'd be nice if we ended up going to star trek. but i wont push it. i don't even know where i'm taking them yet. i have a selection of prime & wine, northwestern steak house, applebee's, which i'm inclined to avoid like a fire, there's half moon over in clear lake, which is about 10 miles to the west of us. good food, and rather nice on the budget too. dinner for two, with drinks, came to 55 bux last time we were there. so let's see, there's chandler's, which really nipped at the pocket last time we went, and the food wuzn't all that great. and then there's places like the other place, and papa's american cafe. both of which serve decent food, but i'm all dressed up. i'm not going to waste all this smelly stuff on papa's. or the OP. we might end up at the OP afterwards. or the Wok-N-Roll. a rock-station playing chinese place with gogo girls for waitresses. go figure. it's mason city iowa.

but i don't know where we'll end up tonite. there's Quarry, which we've not tried yet. i dunno. surprise me, as i'm up for anything as long as Ty is coming along. ya, for the first time in 6 months of eating out. so this time is special you might say. but only you and i know about this secret admiration. let's keep it a secret shall we?

i'll be sure to let you know how the night turned out. probably not until tomorrow. hopefully i'm gonna have a few drinks in me (and a joint) before i lay me down to sleep. i know i'll have nice dreams tonite.

oh and before i go, i should mention that i have a new \\PENIS. it's a new asus laptop. bitchin. the only thing that i'm upset about is the guy at best buy told me that it had a blue ray player in it. it doesn't. but hey, i can scrimp on one thing what with all the rest of the joys i have to
play with. i got win7 on it (it comes with vista premium), but i downloaded win7 and slapped that baby on it, and now i'm making it my #1 partition. i like win7 much better than vista. i spoze after anybody's experience with vista, anything would look better. but trust me, win7 is solid as a rock. even ran my magicJack. so it's 1830. time for me to make final preparations for a night out on the town.

later.z

got a spanking brand new computer

it's a classy asus brand, and i'm in love with it. bought it at best buy. here's the link to it so you can see how nice it is.

this post is being done by spreading the input out over a coupla of days. cuz i started this like on tuesday or so, and it's wednesday today. oh well. as long as it comes out the same mouth, i'm sure the majority of you wouldn't have a problem with it. and those who would get upset need to get a life.

so wheat do we talk about tonite. notice the absence of a question mark. it was rhetorical.

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well, shit, shit shit shiiit. there's nothing i can do now, but i'm kinda hungry. ya know it's not like there's chinese restaurants that deliver. oh no. not around here. only pizza places deliver. there's 2 national brands represented in mason city, domino's and pizza hut. to tell you the truth, i only order pizza from a sports bar, papa's american cafe. it's decent pizza, but you have to tell them to put on xtra pepperoni. when you really really need to order out. the chinese places in town open, then close, then open and then closing. so many of 'em ya wonder if they're not the same ppl doing corp scams. not that these places are being questioned in any investigation.

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well, now what. i should hit the sack. tho i wouldn't go right to sleep. i'm too awake right now. plus, i dont have anything happening tomorrow, so i could very well sleep in late, but diva will wake me up by 9. unless i'm on the couch. she leaves me alone when i fall asleep on the couch. and i tend to do that if i'm layin down with my feet up. they're swollen, along with the calves on both legs. weird, but i got water pills, and i dont know if the reason they're not as big/ swollen as they were this morning, nope. they're not, i jus looked.

but that's not the reason for this post. my reason for this post is to let those of you who are tracking my condition/travels. i've been away from the keyboard getting research. ya, research. into why ppl post to the web. like really. why in god's name would i want you to know me in so much a personal way. a very rare oddity, until the web became the thing. actually, i was doing web back in 75. so don't tell me about the web.

thank you.

now on to better topics. i'm sitting at the mac doing this, typing on the microsoft wireless natural keyboard. a great keyboard for anybody looking for a solid keyboard that's wireless. plus you get the added benefit of having a more natural position for your fingers and wrists. ya, it's a great keyboard. i've had mine for about 2 years so far. it replaced one exactly like it after THAT one wore out after 5 years, or whenever they were introduced over at keyboardsRus.

anyway, the weather is on. that's my queue to pay attention. i'm starting to get multi-tasky when i listen to the scanner. ya, another one of my playtoys. a scanner that cost me a coupla hundred bux. but i get all these different organizations, including the police and fire department. and mercy. with the helicopter. that's always a fun thing to do.

fun. something that i aint had in a long long LOOOOOong time. why i deny myself sweet pleasures is probably because i've had all the sweet pleasures that i would ever want. i do not want any more. there's no gusto in my step shall we say. i calculate it out and i come to the conclusion is it's age. i'm only 52 right now, but it's age that's tak=ing it's toll. i'm lucky to have lived THIS long. after that kansas city fire photo came out. i'm the only one that made it down in a fire ladder that night. i think 24 people died that changed my life, not to the better unfortunately, or fortunately depending on how you look at things. i say if ya got the Q then i'm with you.

i should g'head and post this. put another action into twitter. nah, i have pumpkin bars and i want some ice cream. so here goes.

later.z