well, i just read the previous post, and i don't know what i was smoking, but today, i'm back in the same seat i've been sitting in for the last 3 months.  the pain came back in a big way.  and flashes of swallowing those pills kept going thru my mind.  i could actually feel what it would feel like.  almost to the point of *shiver*.

but i'm definitely back on the train i was riding last week.  going nowhere fast.  except i'm not going fast.  i'm sure i'm toning things down by half.  where it took 5 seconds to do something, now takes 10.  i used to be able to make the pain subside to a point where it didn't bother me so much.  it's harder to do that any more.  i'm all done with the kindbud.  there's no more of the good stuff.  another reason i'm back on track.  not really.

one and five still are playing a prominent role in this whole thing.  i'm unable to pin down exactly what it means.  either a 15 or 51.  but there's a 5 and there's a 1 out there.  and i can't for the life of me feel comfortable calling it either way.  when it does make itself known, i'll be sure to make a post about it.

i think i've got a checklist of things that i want done when my body is discovered.  i should get that printed out with the corrections i had on it.  since i've got the mac up and running.  i don't run the mac all the time any more.  it uses up a lot of energy.  but that's not why it's not running.  it's got a cold of sort.  i can't restart it.  once it's running, shutting it off would make the computer unusable for hours.  there's 2 red led  lights that light up in back of the on/off switch.  but why would that be of concern for you huh.

i recently doubled the ram in the vista laptop.  things run without giving me 'short on memory' dlg boxes.  i needed something more than 2 gig.  there's 4 in there now, and we're fine.   i wish i could get a straight answer from microsoft regarding why i can't see the laptop from the xbox.  i can see the xbox in vista, but it can't see me to connect.  i need to be running media center tho, i think.  i wonder if that's an option on the startup menu.

anyway, with all these toys you gotta wonder how a guy could be bored.  it's not that hard to tell you the truth.  one can easily get bored living in a 12x8 room.  my kitchen is twice the size of the living room.  i'll have to dig uip some photos of it getting painted.