can ya taste it yet?

i'm sitting this close to doin the deed, i'm nervous writing this.  i've been awake all day and watching stargate. waiting for my friend to call me back.  i've been up since about 7 this morning.  couldn't go back to sleep so i stood up.  so half of my day is over with.  in fact, i'm in my eighth hour.  did a load of laundry last nite.  so i got clean clothes.  no need for clean clothes as i'm not expecting to go anywhere any time soon.  i need to get to the store on tuesday, but that's about all i got going.  and it's chanukah.  not that i celebrate chanukah at all, but my friends do, so i ride their coattails.  same with christmas.

but getting back to the subject du jour.  suicide.  notice how it rolls off the keyboard.   yes, suicide.  touchy subject as i've found out the hard way.  but some people just can't deal with anything suicidal, unless they're controlling the situation.  although, i must give this student intern out at the mhc, and assistant to the residing psych doc.  lasisse.  nice guy too.  his student was a bit more apt at figuring out what it really is.  or he wuznt injecting himself into the situation.  and i think he got wind of the truth.  but he'll cover his ass with my declaration that he is in no way at fault for my actions.  and here i don't even know the boy's name, he told it to me ..twice i think.  oh well, i'm never good at names.

point being, he was respectful of my way of thinking.  and i liked that.  i wish we could have met earlier.  'sides, he is kinda Qute.