note to self

shit i forgot what i was going to type down so that i would remember what 'it' was. and now i've forgotten what i was going to say. see? in a second, less than a second, i can lose all train of thought, or jump on something else and ride for a while. it's kinda fun to jump on people's trips. they all love to talk about themselves. people i find, are a generally pompous bunch.

but ya, i forgot allll about what i was going to remind myself with. it duznt happen often, thank god. but it does happen. and to which degree is how i judge my reality. only things that can excite multiple senses at a time are in rare order around here. so to fill that missing pocket of data, people often tend to talk about personal experiences. they'll generally reflect upon themselves in ways that would send psychiatrists across the globe running for their sheepskins, which are flying high in the air. but given the opportunity, people will generally talk about themselves. 90% of the time.

me? i tend to talk about them. mostly because my experiences would pale theirs. and that's being a pompous bitch. guilty, and i could care less. but really. but i speak the truth. i'm one of a kind. i like being that way. so many of the stars are also, self-absorbed. that's what makes one a diva. the fairer the light, the wealthier the game. and it's a game with them in the drivers seat most of the time (or so they tend to think they are pawns). i can see where chess would come in handy right about n0w.

so i leave with this in hand. the knowledge that i passed along a Qness secret. the realization that you are who you say you are. that's all. i'm feeling pretty good right about now. the right balance of booze and pot. it's a nice laid back feeling. not one to want permanently tho. and not doing something says just as much as doing something. it all depends on how one feels at the time and in the execution of a story line. something that says pretty much 80% of the truth.

i am about there with the ending now. one more paragraph.

finally, and i mean this truthfully, there's only one person you gotta please, and that's yourself. once you got that under control, it's time to reach out and take another story line and work at it. i can't say i'm at what stage of this cavalcade of a game i'm at. i'm not even sure of what game i'm in at this point in time. but how can anybody know what game they're going to be in. and that's a rhetorical question. planning is something i would pay someone to do. i thought linda wo9uld be good, and i think she is, jus not in my column. my relationship with this girl is one of a kind. but that's another story. one that maybe told (depending on several factors) yet tonite.