I'm still around, which kinda astonishs me. i seriously thought it was a decenber 15 timeframe that was guiding things along. surprise. december 15 came and gone already, and i'm still here. but i smell it so i know it's in the air. i'm working on getting comfortable with the onset of knowing it'll be hours. i think i can do hours. i know i can do days. or i thought so anyway. maybe it was january 15. it had a 1 and a 5 in it.
anyway, so i'm still around. still going off to the store and shop. i've gotten a lot of joy out of shopping, especially when i was buying for someone else. in this case, linda was the brunt of my philanthropic endeavors lately. she's gotten gas and lunch. next thing ya know i'll be buying her groceries. not really. but i felt good when i gave them a 32" lcd and a bluray player - bitches are $300 in wal-mart. i think it was wal-mart. no it was best buy. ya, best buy had the dynex 32". and it's been great. it's the cheapest they had for the 32". but enough of that.
why you say. why am i still around one would ask. one should ask it. i'm here because it's not yet my time. that's all i can say. it cant be because of the reality of it. i've had the pills in my hand at one point. but i got pulled out of it. so i know there's a force at work here. i wonder what it wants.
i dunno. i think, confidently think, that there is a way of knowing when it's the right time. i believe that to a t. (what's a t?) but it'll be a voice that tells me. i'll hear it loud and clear. not that it says a whole lot, but i will recognize the authority. my biggest problem thus far is diva. i don't know how i'm going to leave her. every time i try telling her, i kinda choke up, and dismiss the need. but it always has a way of creeping back up where you least expect it.
so did you celebrate christmas? or chanukah? i think that's the proper way of spelling it. i think my friend void spelled it that way. one n. i took one out. so no, i aint so smart that i can spell right all the time. most of the time. always had a knack for that sorta thing. but i didn't really celebrate for christmas. i stayed home that day. and i'm glad because linda got soused ... i think both nights. oh well. i aint gonna judge her at all for what she does. but she's getting everything when i go, so i'm trusting her a lot to do what i want. and that's a good place for diva. i don't care so much about the other cats - maybe someone can trap them and take them to the shelter.
anyway, i'm ending this in a sideways vote. i'm looking at life through these special glasses. it makes everything look so much more real. funny how i just looked up and saw dave in glasses. funny huh. it's a sign i tell ya. it's a sign. :)
i'll try and do a new years post. tomorrow. i've got stats to do. if you're not familiar with my stats, take a look at #mindvox and #interport chat sessions. i'm doing 2 actually tomorrow for each channel. one for the month, which is normally done, but being the end of the year, i'll do a year end one that'll analyze logs from all year. should prove interesting wouldnt you say?
so until tomorrow, i bid adieu.
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